I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

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Suprisingly weird. :)

Saturday, March 28, 2009 || Saturday, March 28, 2009

Let me share a very trivial thing. :)

When my high school friends and I went to an event, we took a lot of pictures. My camera back then had a terrible error. Several pictures would get replaced by the picture where the error started. I was really pissed back then because those pictures were very important to me.

What's funny with the whole situation is that the picture that replaced several pictures, and also, the picture where the error started was the picture of someone that surprisingly became an important person to me.
Moreover, I was really pissed back then! *chuckles*

Well, God really works in a different ways, but still, I wonder, if all these really meant something. :)
Oh! I have another story related to the same person, but, that's a different thing to blog about. :P

photo from here.

Drifting Away.

Thursday, March 26, 2009 || Thursday, March 26, 2009

Its 2:30 am and I am currently reading manga and listening to music.

Frankly at this moment, I can say that I am really scared, and perhaps a little lonely too.
So, I decided to blog the things running in my head, and also, to somehow divert my focus into other stuffs. I also started listening to songs by Hillsongs.
(sounds kinda' redundant? cx)

I started recall the things that is happening to me right now, then, I found myself arriving at a conclusion that lately things seems to not go my way.

Somehow, due to differing problems,
I started to feel betrayed, bored, unsatisfied, so irritable, lonely, and inevitably wrong.

But I realized that I was also indulging myself in worldly things, particularly vices to forget all of these problems. I started to forget my responsibilities and I kind of took him for granted.

I suddenly recalled all the things that I learned from different people, and I started to realized that maybe, I felt all of these negative things because I am currently drifting away from him.
I thought that this is also his way of saying that,
"I'm here. I won't leave you alone."

Somehow, I am also afraid to admit that I am wrong but I am really at fault.
I also know that there are a lot of inconsistencies in my head but two things are for sure.

Its about time I apologize and,
its about time that I go back to his arms.

P.S.
Rwar!~ I am starting to miss our weekly worships. :(

A thought :)

Monday, March 9, 2009 || Monday, March 09, 2009

Just a thought for the whole excruciating week:

"I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me."
- Philippians 4:13

I believe that through him, with him and in him I can overcome any endeavor in my life. Yey! :)

Image credits:
Faith by Alkina Angel

Help. Too much Confusion.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009 || Tuesday, March 03, 2009

"Ang hirap kasi iwan e, andito sa UST yung kasiyahan ko pero yung pangarap ko wala dito."
These are the exact same words I uttered to Ate Eliza regarding my decision of transferring to Benilde.

I just can't imagine the thought of myself, getting every single requirement of UST for transferring and receiving a honorary dismissal. Argh. This just makes me feel so sad.

Transferring to another school and leaving UST feels like saying goodbye to something that really became a big part of your life.

Its just that my heart is within the four corners of España, Dapitan, P. Noval and Lacson. It just became the place that I was so happy with. A place where I made new and lasting friends and experienced God's Love in YFC-UST. Moreover, Benilde is... well, I don't even know if I would even fit in there.

*sighs*

I know its just right to shift to a course that I truly want but then why does it feel so wrong?

Help, please and some prayers too. Thank you. :(