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Monday, August 30, 2010 || Monday, August 30, 2010

I wanna break every clock
The hands of time could never move again
We could stay in this moment (stay in this moment)
For the rest of our lives
Is it over now hey, hey, is it over now

It makes me feel sad that in these kind of situations I become like this,

I can't help but blame myself because I made the wrong choices. And from those wrong choices, arise undesirable results and destructive feelings. Although I think I have no regrets, I believe that I find all these difficult and hurtful.

Yes, I feel sad, because I am coward.

I am weary.

I am tired.

I had enough of all these heartaches.

But what if another appears? Will I be willing to waste my time on this? Will I be willing to break my barriers? Will I be willing to respond to him?

My mind says 'No', but my heart thinks otherwise.

Because I know it longs for something it has forgotten.

WHAT TO DO~ 082910

|| Monday, August 30, 2010

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To be honest,

|| Monday, August 30, 2010

To be honest, I feel whatever.

It seems like I didn't really wanna care, but there will be times that I would think,

'I have nothing else to do? How about just making myself happy?'

then I would be like, 'whatever, you are digging your own grave.'

And then I would tell myself, 'don't feel bad, you're like that to others too. and besides, as long as you don't put any meaning to it, you'll be fine.'

And some would say, 'kyaa~ just go with the flow' and 'be careful, you might get hurt.'

FTF --> F*ck this Feeling. It definitely isn't helping. Not to mention I'm already tired and weak while doing this.

Why can't I just be like them? Why can't I just find a relationship that seems to be made in heaven as they are?

KhunToriaaa~ #FTW!