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My dreams are getting more hurtful.

Things are getting harder.

I dreamt about him hugging me. It was a surprise back hug. That he can't help it. That he wanted to get back to me.
And then... I agreed.

I felt my heart jump, my heart fluttered in a pleasant surprise. And I accepted his very arms.
Because I love him still.

I thought that it was a good. I thought everything is okay. I'm happy and I honestly feel good.
But then I woke up... from a very beautiful dream.



It still haunts me, my feelings haunt me.
My dreams are beginning to become frequent and it hurts even more.
I don't know how to stop it.
I... I don't know if I want it to stop.
But all I know is that I want it to become a reality.





I feel, surreal.

And I don't even know what I'm supposed to feel.

I'm drowning myself in work, and I want to feel elated.
I guess the past few days had been fast, I much needed a break.

I needed affection and sensitivity.
I need to feel sensible.

I need to feel something.
But I guess, I have to learn to be alone. Haha.

There's something wrong, but I don't know what that is.

I need motivation to work, honestly.
I need a motivation like love.
I need an affection as such.

But it seems so far, please whoever you are come here.